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In week 7, i having my 1st presentation on computer system and appliactions, wow, i wan freaking nervous that day, i cannot presented well :(
how sad? sigh .
Somemore got many technical problem occur :(
Anyway, thanks my groupmates that work hard in completing this assignment.
Appreciate !

My outfit on that day *ignore my ugly face* LOL

H.O.W

our relationship still can maintain?
even though after confront, we will quarrel again.
i can bet i am not the one changing, if change, also change to love you much already.
what you expect me to do now?
let go u?
you'll be happy?maybe
i don;t know.
sigh.

i can't believe the sigh of you on our relationships.
ANNOY !!! :'(

heartbreak

HO MUN YEE, stop crying.
be a tough gal, please

ME & YOU

CURRENT MOOD : moody till max

since the day you went back Singapore, we had quarreled till now.
and yet you told me because i am the one who thought so much?
actually do i?
this is the first time i having such feelings.
and this is the first time you said kinda words that hurt me much.
this is the first time you told me actually from beginning we should not be to together maybe.
this is the first time when i said break then you told me now u having the thought being so.
you know how hurt it is? you would ever know.
because last time no matter what we quarrel, i won't used such harsh words talk to you.
you would never calm down and think why i will so worry about everything.
you just thought i want you is because i need your help.
the fact it is not.
i worry so much because you are so mean to me.
you are part of my life.
when we quarrel, you said you did comfort me, but i don't know why i feel like what you said just like walked through me.
sighh.
you will never know how pain is my heart.
together about 2yrs plus, finally i only know i am such a girl in your mind.
can you just stand me here and think about me?
i am the only child in my family, no matter what stuff i met with, i need settle by myself, i can't let my parents worry, because they having an age, even if they knew it, they will be more annoyed, i hope this kind of things just let me suffer is more than enough.
really.
i do not hope anything from you, at least let me know, since the day i got you, i am not fighting alone there.
but now the situation seems changed already.
i do not blame you.
i just blame myself not being that tough.
sorry, i know i make you feel harsh.
everything is just because of me.
sorry.

include today, we had been togethered for 876 days.
21024hours.
52560minutes.
3153600seconds.

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在我伤心的时候，还有谁会陪我？
我很想哭。
但是哭都不能带来什么，只是心情会好一点。
我好像真的什么都没了将，即是多么不开心，伪装却是我时常带着的心情。
很可悲吧，我的人生，就是那样，有太多玻璃碎片，是我已经无法弥补的。
这都是我的错。

s.o.m.e-times

sometimes i do hope we won't stay that far, but in fact, we are that far.
sometimes i do hope you can jealous bit, but in fact, you are always jealous *but now it seems less
sometimes i do hope you can read my mind, but in fact, you not really can read my mind.
sometimes i do hope you can hug me hardly and tell me how important i am to you, but in fact, it happened once in a blue moon *because you just will said much sweet stuff through message. sometimes i do hope you treat me bad, but in fact, you still there to treat me good *no matter how overbearing am i.
sometimes you hope i can be mature bit, but in fact, i am still that childish. *brings lots trouble to you.
sometimes you hope i can understand your feelings, but in fact, i neglected your feelings. *after i knew, i was regretted.
sometimes you didn't hope i can give you any surprise, but in fact, i know you wish to, but maybe is some problems make me can't achieve.
sometimes you do hope i can be with you always no matter what are you doing or what am i doing, where are you or where i am, but in fact, due to distance, we can't mend it.

there are so many sometimes..
but how much you can do for me, as well as how much i can do for you..
ya, we can't predict future, but at least we must appreciate what we have now.
DO YOU?

Mr. Yau and Miss. Ho

Hmm, blogging again. I knew i had neglected my blog somedays. Now having the mood to be updated it.

My love one back m'sia to visit me . yea i was overwhelmed and appreciate what he did to me.

We spend our time played and talk together.

But i felt that we started have less thgs to talk about.

Why? Or maybe i m perasan?

I have no idea.

Sigh.

Before that, i think distance towards us should not be a problem but now why i will worry all sorts of our things.

I do not tell you is because i don't want us to be down , unhappy.

I know i m trouble yet you still pampered me that much, I feel blissful and wee-being having such man, SERIOUSLY!

Do you know, when i have a look on your palm, i saw your hand work till the skin also getting rough and dry, that moment i having heartache.

As us know, why this few months you need work so hard, because of some privacy reasons , sorry, i know i am uselessbut i really do got treat our love with true heart.

I knew you believe my love towards you.

thanks, i hope what i thought just because of my wrong feelings.

baby, i will do what i promise in my study yea.

thanks for so sayang me .

*with lovess*

friendship

no matter how unhappy i am, i still pretend to be happy in front of you
why ? because don't want you to worry
in my life, i always meet with something that people won't meet with
during this time, people said : friends will be a place to let you share all your feelings
is kinda true when during my secondary and foundation
when i proceed to degree, all things not in my expectations
i treat you with true heart but why every time i met the friends all also come with benefits one?!
in your minds, benefits will important than everything? include your friend's true heart in treating you!
YOU'RE WRONG !!!!
if you are kinda man, you'll definitely lose everything eventually
ya, i do upset because of this, but i will become more independent and tough !
hope got one day you'll understand precious of friendship
and your message is hurting me.
is alright .

i can accept.

*with sigh*

i know i still got true frends with me also
*zoe chim tagged*
*fion fish tagged*
*wah lun tagged*
*yuen hua tagged*
*sharon lau tagged*
and many more. i feel glad to have you as a part of my life. *with lovess*