me me me !

recently, imma on the track of emo-ing. seriously, i miss my SMILE with laughs that i usually acted like nobody business. sigh, i gotta fuck up with every single stuff i met with. i guess nobody will more unlucky or in another words "hak zai" than me. relationship, friendship and study totally ruined my life gao gao ! i didn't experienced such hell & severe situation before. but ends up who gotta lend me shoulders and ear.

1st : relationship - still the same, he will never know what imma trying to express,  when quarrel , he just will say ok my bad, just find others that are better than me, PLEASE! this is not a way of confronting. do you know i got lotsa things wanna share with you but you just dump me aside straight from you shoulder. you will ever know how hurt is that, </3 . now everyday after you busy with your things you just easily get tired, alright, i und, but at least tell me how're you? everything's fine? bla bla bla or even thingy things, i will willing listen, i bet. i just want us to get closer but not far apart, i hate of that feelings. hey baby, i don't know how long we can last for? but every single moment with you i treasured much, do u still remember this almost 3 years how much stuff we went through, all of that were harsh but we overcome, yet whu you just like your so called sudden changes in attitude spolit everything. I DON'T WANT this things happened on us, you know i still waiting you to change? i am afraid of those silly thought that came across my mind, i will worry you flirt with others, i know you can find a girl that prettier and wiser than me much, but i can bet you can't find somemone that like me heart you that much. YauWahLun, i hope that naive's Yau will come back to me, i am waiting <3

2010 May 04 @ your birthday

 2010 July 29 @my birthday, you purposely came back from s'pore celebrate with me

 2009 1st year you went s'pore

 *there are lots of our silly and memorable pics that i kept in my laptop

2nd : friendship - in my BM course, i can say i am quite okay with every mates , but those who close with me got few friends, my lovely gf-hsueh ying , a newbbie close friend - jacqueline, sure include agnes and shu ling. these peepos delighted my day seriously. But unfortunately, there was some coincidence happened on us. sigh. and the most hurtful stuff that i met recently was got a backstabber that i didn't ever thought him/her is such a fella. him/her just try create quite amount of fake news to destroy me and my bestie's relationship. what's the point you wanna get from us? totally disappointed, mainly my mates knew what happened and thanks them for believing me, just a piece of advice for the backstabber : i don't know why you so hate me since i do not have any argument with you before? why don't you just sit down and have a minute of silence to think is it correct for what you did to me, even said my bestie scare of me, said i am very stick to her, yet i confronted her, she said she never said the things, as she really treat me as her best friend, i can sense it, and my best friend's mate chat with me in chat-box, she told the same things, she told me my bestie not kinda girl, haiz. Can you just stop the rumors and be back yourself, i just want us to have a memorable degree life, i swear what i said is from the bottom form my heart. i just wanna tell you i will be honest to my friend, what i had done wrong i will admit, hmm, and just don't dig peepo's sad stuff out and go and told everyone about the past, because already said was past tense, in that should have many unwanted sadness, so do respect, i will still treat you as friend .
alrite , skip the "sad part", i will like to said about my bestie :) they are very mean to me :)

Hsueh ying : i get to close with her when i proceed to degree, she is my truly supporter, no matter what i happened, just a text / a call she will just quickly response to me, i feel so blissful and grateful thanks baby, i knew recently we unhappy due to some reasons, but after settle, i felt i more und you and our friendship more stronger than last time, ying, thanks for be my bestie, i don't care how many years in future, you must treat me as your girlfriend and your bestie as well, i love u more than anythgs i can said :) sorry if sometimes i "gik" you, but this is our sentiment , i know you do care me lots btw. muaxxxxx, and we got faith because we are JULY borne babies :)


Jacqueline : you're a cute girl for me. what you told me that day i seriously feel touch, i didn't thought you will treat me so good after some incident ( you know i know la) hehe, shhhhhh..you do concern me as what hsueh ying did, i know you hate those fakers who treat friend so untrue, same goes to me, but don't worry imma not, i think you knew since you told me you feel warm after my text ( that day when i saw you emo in practical class). Haha, after the vacation, we got to know each other more deeply, we went supper dinner together, so enjoyable to me, and yea, of course when i find you and share with you my things, you'll try your best help me settle, thanks baby :) i really appreciate, i already treat you as my best friends too, do you? hehe, love ya

agnes and shu ling : hi pretties, i feel glad that i knew you all, othough seriously i not so close with you all before that. but i also feel happy when i told you all about my relationship's stuff, you all did comfort me, you guys make me speechless cause i din tot you all will do so.for agnes, i wanna apologize cause previous i having some misunderstood with you, i hope everything is fine now, i not mean to lose a friend, and serious i swear on my words i didn't told that you very bad to friends, just maybe got miss communications. hope you und yea. for s.ling, ling ling, i know you aint petty girl , maybe that time when i confront with you about your stuff, i miss communicate with you, so lead out your misunderstand, i really wish everything is back to normal, you guys must remember, a precious friendship is come from a true heart and trustworthy , so friendship's forever. love you guys.

3rd : study - lots things to catch up, i did all my test very badly, sighh, i hope someone can help me and from now i need to work hard, if not, ..... aikz, i donoi i will ends up with what =/

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hope things go smoothly, i need luck and encouragement !!! =(