Laziness fill up my mind and happy birthday my beloved mummy

Today is my beloved mummy birthday.
Actually got lots things wanna said out here but since i having exam, so not much can blogging here,
Sigh, exam will be on on next Sat, i still that lazy, charm le.
Sigh, just here to wish my mum healthy always and happy always.
Mummy sorry for what i had done that hurt you, i not meant it.
Hope you can forgive me.
I LOVE YOU MUMMY !!! *with loves that unlimited*

here is some of my self-loving pica
i trying hard to keep fit, but still i "mou sun choy" . *sighh*
ignore it if let u feel disgusting :)

hees

In week 7, i having my 1st presentation on computer system and appliactions, wow, i wan freaking nervous that day, i cannot presented well :(
how sad? sigh .
Somemore got many technical problem occur :(
Anyway, thanks my groupmates that work hard in completing this assignment.
Appreciate !

My outfit on that day *ignore my ugly face* LOL

H.O.W

our relationship still can maintain?
even though after confront, we will quarrel again.
i can bet i am not the one changing, if change, also change to love you much already.
what you expect me to do now?
let go u?
you'll be happy?maybe
i don;t know.
sigh.

i can't believe the sigh of you on our relationships.
ANNOY !!! :'(

heartbreak

HO MUN YEE, stop crying.
be a tough gal, please

ME & YOU

CURRENT MOOD : moody till max

since the day you went back Singapore, we had quarreled till now.
and yet you told me because i am the one who thought so much?
actually do i?
this is the first time i having such feelings.
and this is the first time you said kinda words that hurt me much.
this is the first time you told me actually from beginning we should not be to together maybe.
this is the first time when i said break then you told me now u having the thought being so.
you know how hurt it is? you would ever know.
because last time no matter what we quarrel, i won't used such harsh words talk to you.
you would never calm down and think why i will so worry about everything.
you just thought i want you is because i need your help.
the fact it is not.
i worry so much because you are so mean to me.
you are part of my life.
when we quarrel, you said you did comfort me, but i don't know why i feel like what you said just like walked through me.
sighh.
you will never know how pain is my heart.
together about 2yrs plus, finally i only know i am such a girl in your mind.
can you just stand me here and think about me?
i am the only child in my family, no matter what stuff i met with, i need settle by myself, i can't let my parents worry, because they having an age, even if they knew it, they will be more annoyed, i hope this kind of things just let me suffer is more than enough.
really.
i do not hope anything from you, at least let me know, since the day i got you, i am not fighting alone there.
but now the situation seems changed already.
i do not blame you.
i just blame myself not being that tough.
sorry, i know i make you feel harsh.
everything is just because of me.
sorry.

include today, we had been togethered for 876 days.
21024hours.
52560minutes.
3153600seconds.

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在我伤心的时候，还有谁会陪我？
我很想哭。
但是哭都不能带来什么，只是心情会好一点。
我好像真的什么都没了将，即是多么不开心，伪装却是我时常带着的心情。
很可悲吧，我的人生，就是那样，有太多玻璃碎片，是我已经无法弥补的。
这都是我的错。

s.o.m.e-times

sometimes i do hope we won't stay that far, but in fact, we are that far.
sometimes i do hope you can jealous bit, but in fact, you are always jealous *but now it seems less
sometimes i do hope you can read my mind, but in fact, you not really can read my mind.
sometimes i do hope you can hug me hardly and tell me how important i am to you, but in fact, it happened once in a blue moon *because you just will said much sweet stuff through message. sometimes i do hope you treat me bad, but in fact, you still there to treat me good *no matter how overbearing am i.
sometimes you hope i can be mature bit, but in fact, i am still that childish. *brings lots trouble to you.
sometimes you hope i can understand your feelings, but in fact, i neglected your feelings. *after i knew, i was regretted.
sometimes you didn't hope i can give you any surprise, but in fact, i know you wish to, but maybe is some problems make me can't achieve.
sometimes you do hope i can be with you always no matter what are you doing or what am i doing, where are you or where i am, but in fact, due to distance, we can't mend it.

there are so many sometimes..
but how much you can do for me, as well as how much i can do for you..
ya, we can't predict future, but at least we must appreciate what we have now.
DO YOU?

Mr. Yau and Miss. Ho

Hmm, blogging again. I knew i had neglected my blog somedays. Now having the mood to be updated it.

My love one back m'sia to visit me . yea i was overwhelmed and appreciate what he did to me.

We spend our time played and talk together.

But i felt that we started have less thgs to talk about.

Why? Or maybe i m perasan?

I have no idea.

Sigh.

Before that, i think distance towards us should not be a problem but now why i will worry all sorts of our things.

I do not tell you is because i don't want us to be down , unhappy.

I know i m trouble yet you still pampered me that much, I feel blissful and wee-being having such man, SERIOUSLY!

Do you know, when i have a look on your palm, i saw your hand work till the skin also getting rough and dry, that moment i having heartache.

As us know, why this few months you need work so hard, because of some privacy reasons , sorry, i know i am uselessbut i really do got treat our love with true heart.

I knew you believe my love towards you.

thanks, i hope what i thought just because of my wrong feelings.

baby, i will do what i promise in my study yea.

thanks for so sayang me .

*with lovess*

friendship

no matter how unhappy i am, i still pretend to be happy in front of you
why ? because don't want you to worry
in my life, i always meet with something that people won't meet with
during this time, people said : friends will be a place to let you share all your feelings
is kinda true when during my secondary and foundation
when i proceed to degree, all things not in my expectations
i treat you with true heart but why every time i met the friends all also come with benefits one?!
in your minds, benefits will important than everything? include your friend's true heart in treating you!
YOU'RE WRONG !!!!
if you are kinda man, you'll definitely lose everything eventually
ya, i do upset because of this, but i will become more independent and tough !
hope got one day you'll understand precious of friendship
and your message is hurting me.
is alright .

i can accept.

*with sigh*

i know i still got true frends with me also
*zoe chim tagged*
*fion fish tagged*
*wah lun tagged*
*yuen hua tagged*
*sharon lau tagged*
and many more. i feel glad to have you as a part of my life. *with lovess*

time flee fast.

Today i had used whole day to flip through my notes rather than really go and memo it.

i really got concentrate gah, but it seems ....
I cant really remember it.
lalala.
No matter how, i'll try my best memo all.

Yea, step forward.

end with *rainbow*
haha, saw it whn i going out for dinner, u can see it?
=]

bored, new sem,

This is my new sem, hmm, this sem i am quite free due to some reasons.
mid-term test coming soon.
i cn't be playful anymore.

move ! move! move! step forwards~~

i am out of my mindss

Just wanna tell readers that this post is FULL OF MY TEARS today, it's because many stuff happened out of sudden, and i was like alone in that kind of situation.

Yea, i admit this degree first sem break, i not really like it.
It is all because of the unknown results.
As i mentioned in the previous post, i did bad, so now, i deserved to be that worry.
I understand , it will be having such feelings.
Everynight, my tears will accompany me slept, not even single day it is not.
What can i do?
I did got many comfort from my friends. I know cry doesn't help anythings, but at least it can let me having an abreaction.
I cannot share my feelings to my mum as i know she cannot accept it and i knew is my fault.
Mum, i really hope god will bless me pass all my subjects. I swear to my words : If i got pass all the subjects in this sem1 of degree, i will work more harder to get more advanced results, i will be back the child that you got to know, since her primary till F3 that she having an excellent results ! I SWEAR !
*sigh*
God, i hope you can really hear my rogation


is for you:
we seems far to far to each other.
i know maybe not your problems , is mine.
i got many things need annoy yet you also.
recall back, we did went through many things:
in our secondary school time :
-- we lepak together
-- we started have feel towards each other during the time i revenged on you because you hurt my friends
--we sama-sama pergi watch your school band competition
--we also took part in star walk and international run together
--you quarrel with your best brother because of me
--you met my mum in shopping mall and you scare like hell
--together work hard for spm
--when i tuition, you come accompany have my meal from you school
--you watched me in my mum's car then only took bus back your house that's freak far
--you saw me PK when we come down from tuition center to buy food
and many more in our form5 school live

as we grow till 19 years old, you went s'ngpore at 2009 , some problems happened :
* we quarreled for N times just because of your jealousy
*we cried when you're the one leaving for work
*we started to understand each other when we know we are life partner for each other
*i started felt we are far yet i still hearts you
*i started feel whether i can lye on you anymore
*i started to be jealous
and lots.

we give many promises, we did betray each other before for once, and we sewar not to repeat that wrong anymore.
Now, when you chat with me, i feel you're not really care me anymore, idk whether is i perasan or what, it makes me annoy.
sighh.

confront? is it still work?
all we will just ends up with nothing.

sighh. i need someone to support me.
RESULTS ! & YOU! drag me to hell.
sighh.

imy
i hope all the feel will be back, and we will still keep holding the promises.

r a n d o m -

just saw my friend uploaded the pictures that we went genting, i found out got 2 pictures are my love one, though imma ugly inside

my love (1)

my love (2)

*with joy*
30 sept-1 oct

this girl lightened my mood today

Hmm, random picture.
I went outing with my lovely sister, YuenHua .
She is a freak pretty, sweet, polite girl.
I like my this sister freak much.
She knows i am worrying my results much, so she tried hard make me forgot about it.
Thanks you sayang.
But no matter how, it still rewinding in my mind, i couldn't don't give a damn on it, i really did suck in this Year1Sem1 exam !!
*full of much regretted*
Today, i went sing K with my sister, awww. her sounds was so damn sweet. wished to have outing with her again ! seriously.

*thanks once again to you, my sister, you make me felt happy today, and thanks your wish, i will pass all the subjects, pray hard together for me *

My great sister - with lovesss

='(

Bla bla bla, anyhow i already rebonded my hair ~
1 words -> UNSATISFIED !! seriously.
It made my face looked freaking big and round, some more, my hair looked damn flat , i more preferred my previous punya hair, though is thick !!
Argh !!
What to do?
Can't do anything right , just can wait it to turn long.
But need to wait how long, yet i still considering should i go and have a cut on my fringe, because it's very long some more when i clipped it, i seemed a WEIRDO !!
F*** ANNOYING ='(
Sigh, but just can accept the fact lo.

头发啊头发，你听话啦快点长吧 =/

awww

Having genting trip and KL trip for 3/4 days like that. hmm
This trip made me exhausted much cause don't really slept much, is freak tired for me.
I had spent almost 400plus ONLY. less right?
Because mum controlling me bought much things.
=( I just bought 1pants, 1 skirt, 4 shirts, 1 bag only. * hou little stuff jek lo, seong sum.
But all the shirts i bought is freak cheap, because my cousin worked in sg. wang, so can get discount, hees. And yet, this is the first time i bought a long skirt that quite hitz now, LOLs, cant believe i will wear dress too.
Hmm, nothing much to write, because this 3 days just keep shopping, anyway, thanks for my cousins for recommended me which shirts are nice to mbe bought =)

Will going on coming DEC, i swear i want get more stuff back =)

* not much picss to upload because all the picss still with my friends *

--sungei. wang @ cousin's shop --

--genting --

Whoots, Finally

This few weeks busy preparing for my exam , so neglected my bloggie already.
Hmm, i also didn't attend my cousin brother's weeding. =/

Yet my KL cousin came, she is so pretty already, yet i admire her damn long hair weyy, SERIOUSLY !!

Hmm, my final exam i din really did well. every paper i am worrying , sigh, don't know what to do , maybe i really should not give a damn on it first, enjoy my holidays .
Feeling excited because my genting trip coming soon.
Whoots !!

This is my cousin =)

i love C O L O U R S

I likee my TT player's colours muchyyy.
It's so colourful.
Aww.
Hees =D


C O L O U R S do make my life more happy, amazing, especially the time i unhappy.

lalala

STUDY ! STUDY ! STUDY !
EXAM ! EXAM ! EXAM !
add oil to myself =]
Waiting for my trip =]

GENTING & KL wait for my visiting.
Muahaha

in your eyes, I AM...

I am .. for you !
This is the way you enjoy to live with . FLIRT !
From now, you'll be diminished in my heart, because there is a man who deserves to get my love.
Just an advice, not to put revenge in love although currently you're not, but your actions show!!
Bye * my friend*
Hope not to meet anymore.
Tc.

Sigh.Bye

sigh

=/

Hmm, had family gathering yesterday, but i don't have that mood to capture any pictures because i am worrying my revision.
Seriously, i don't really start my revision yet, i don't know where's my heart gone?
Already Sunday jor dim suen?
Aikz

wat happen to me. gosh !!!

=(
I am totally not happy because of some stuff.
IMYOU.
a fella tat i should not miss !!

Study week

Ouchh !! so fast come to my study week =/
Yet, i not yet ready for my exam.
You guess what?
Because i am damn lazy.
Sigh, everyone is busying with their revisions, but me end up with Fb-ibg, Movie-ing, Waste-ing time. F ***!!
This is not me ! How i will become like that !!
What happened?
Aikz.
Seriously , i need motivation !!
Please , i am Stressful enough !

*tears shed*

i gotta move eee eee on

Currently not in good mood seriously.
My midterm i not really done it well.
Yet i full of regrets now. what to do?
I feel like wan cry but is wasting time right.
Sigh.
I know i am a lazy bug.
Really. i hope i can be fully concentrate from now on, if not, my final will be GG.
Hmm, move on HMY!!
Not to sit here and thinking those nonsense.
Please !!
Work Hard !!!!!!!!!!

If I Believe I Can.
Then I Can.

helpless

i've no mood right now because argue with him.
yet i not yet start my revision also.
what to do?
who can help me figure it out?
ish.
=/
seriously, feel wanna cry

Whee ~

Here are the pictures that used SAMSUNG JET S8003 took one.
LOL, not many pictures i took=]
The pictures had been edited bit one =]

*specially thanks YOU for this 2 days. i enjoyed lots, in the same time, this is the first time i shed my tears in front of you, no matter how, swear to keep promises that i gave *
♥

Samsung Jet s8003

♥

Firstly, want to talk about the SURPRISE that i got to get it. ta tang ~ is this new hp => SAMSUNG JET S8003. Seriously, this hp is awesome , other than it's a touch screen hp, the camera is 5 mp also. I last time thought that just SONY ERICSSON hp's camera can have a nice shot, but since i tested on this hand-phone, it's camera resolutions not bad also, the colour is very clear. * will uploads some picture that i use this hand-phone to snap*. Yet, eventually i do not accept this surprise =] i give back to him and asked him to use it. Since everytime he tried to give me what ever he can give, but this time i hope all the good things let him to possess. Thanks for your gift ! i do like it much

For me and you

Hmm, today nothing special happened, just busying for the coming lab test, but aikz, the study mood still remain in OFF yet, what to do? Final exam coming soon already, sigh, honestly i do got did my revision, yet i ends up with CONFUSING and somehow i forgot half of the things the next day. HELL ! if continue like that, i think in my mid-age i will suffering Parkinson LOL.
Erm, no matter how, i do know i need to move on. but not stop here.
But hope to get support =/

This is my notes. C O L O R F U L =]

This is my BFF -jinyee, ouchh! today have a talk with her. After degree, we less talk because we got to busy with our stuff. In between, we did happened some unhappy stuff, no matter how, she does still my best friend, forever and ever. Today she told me a story about A "GUY"! I bet you know what i mean right? This is our watchwords LOL . hmm, just wanna tell you, tell YOUR FRIEND that no need bother what the GUY said, just be back herself, as i Know her, she's a clever girl and will not easily get influenced ! Tell her not to care what the GUY said, because it won't have any effect on her, the GUY just want her to be snervous, loss confidence on her study only, SO, just be herself, the one that we used to know her since foundation. YOUR FRIEND can hit THE GUY down, by her ownself 's determinations.
I will here to support her 99 =]
Love yea ! Take care yourself =)

Rainy Day

Rain- By Pedro Cescon

I opened my eyes
And looked up at the rain,
And it dripped in my head
And flowed into my brain,
And all that I hear as I lie in my bed
Is the slishity-slosh of the rain in my head.

I step very softly,
I walk very slow,
I can't do a handstand--
I might overflow,
So pardon the wild crazy thing I just said--
I'm just not the same since there's rain in my head.

For me, sometimes i love rain, because i can hug by someone.
i love rain because it makes me feel fresh.
i love rain because it can temporary let me messy thoughts flee away.
i love rain because i can sleep well.
i love rain because i will have a hot coffee and have a sit to let me have some recall.
i love rain because rain love us, let us get away from hot weather.
....
and many more.
LOL.


RAIN - please cried as much as you can for today.
Thanks.
=]

My New Bloggie

Hmm, recently got many unhappy stuff happened on me, yet i end up with emo-ing, i tried figured it out yet i failed, and because of this, i don't study well in my test as i really cannot concentrate, aikz. Eventually, i decide to have a new blog to represent my new beginning. In that old bloggie, it did had many post that made me hurt and disguisting, the most important was i hope i won't see that fella's blog again, i trying to let go. Perhaps !

I wished this SMILE will come back to me.

♥